With a Kieslowski in one hand and Plato in the other, he navigated through intimations of stories on the street, touching interpretations of emotions captured in a heartbeat.

Physics was pleasing
Predictable, not human
There he took solice

This city is beutiful at night. At 2AM I caught one train with a 30 second wait and my transfer with a 30 second wait. Couldn't be better. Especially when it's this cold.

I just walked the coldest 7.5 blocks in my life. It is currently 1 deg F with a wind chill factor makingit feel like -19. Funny thing is I was walking home thinking "This has to be about 20 below." I think it comes from the midwest upbringing. in 1994, the windchill dropped to -70. That's right, -70 where I was living. By 6 AM here it should be -1 with wind chill at -21. Good stuff.

I should write more, but I am unmotivated. It's late, and I want to sleep.

Went to see an NP and started taking generic Flagyl. I've got one more day. The bloating was getting painful, and I gave in to western medicine. The bloating was so bad that my waist shrank a good 2-3 inches from the elimination of whatever was living in my belly. Hopefully the 7 days at 250 mg will be enough. I had to take three stool samples, but the results haven't come back yet, so we have no idea IF anything is living in there and if so, what. Results should be in on Thursday, though.

The Dr. told me that I should wait a couple of weeks and take another stool sample then to see if the problem has been eliminated. Otherwise we may need to do something else. He seems to think that any residual bloating at this point is the intestine healing itself from the nauseates that were attaching themselves to my intestinal tract.

On another note, I went and saw a counselor today. She is a student of Buddhism and a teacher at the local center I attend for Buddhist classes. I felt that if I was going to talk to someone about my depression they had to understand what I was talking about, since much of my own analysis about my reality is imbued with Buddhist philosophy. I felt uncomfortable at first, but I think it is because I know I probably can't bullshit her. Good thing.

Today was the last day of taking care of business before school starts, doctors, shipping packages, job (which ended a week ago), selling stuff on eBay, returning things, faxing things, stuff I could attend to during school because I was holed up in the library. The past 2 weeks have been all about me and getting my shit done. It's a good feeling to hack away at all that and get it all done. I was going to move out of my apartment because it is so bloody noisy here, but my landlady, upon receiving my 30 days notice told me that she would replace the windows!!!! Nice. I don't have to move. Now I can relax for a couple of weeks.

Thursday I get to see a friend of mine I haven't seen since the first week of school! I've been such a hermit. It's no wonder I feel far removed from any type of social life.

So I am now convinced that somewhere along my third-world journey a acquired some little friends in my gut that have been multiplying by the week. Today I fasted to try and get the bloating down, but it didn't really do much. So I decided that a) considering I bloat no matter what food I ingest, and b) considering that fasting doesn't help, and c) considering that it's becoming progressively worse, I'm going to go with d) parasites.

So I left work early and bought a bunch of cleansers. I bought the all-in-one "Para-GONE," because I have no idea what I'm doing, plus some acidophilus, digestive enzymes, and fiber supplements. My diet for the next 35 days will be:

vegetables
no sugar
vegetables
walnuts
vegetables
no fruit
vegetables
no caffeine
more vegetables
and walnuts
and fiber supplimets
and garlic cloves
and digestive enzymes
and acidophilus

word.